Namaste' !!!

Eye'm so Grateful for all Who have taken Your time to share You, Your spiritual strengths, seekings, & connections with me. Eye have implanted Myself... on my all too-long awaited endeavor, to follow My passions of growth & upRising of mySelf. .....My Art, Poetic Expressions, & Spirit.... they express All things from withIn..... (As eye began to allow MySelf to see again through "Spirit"- Eye've awakened & been freed, again!!!) Connected to One Creator, Creatress, Lover & Guidess off All & All Necessary..... of All=Being......Of All Created & suppressed. Eye pray that as eye grow, you will also, & that You may gain consciousness, Insight, love, peace, growth & light, in Our space... Here at Urth & Earth & In Your lives.....
Peace, Light, Love & Wisdom

Tuesday, May 29, 2012


Thoughts like pillow stuffing, pushed in my head,
reminders, notes, appointments I’m fed
Worries fit in wherever they can,
even, when there is nowhere… they are where they land
Fear of forgetting or lacking-  finances or time,
doubts of not giving enough of me, drowning Me out

Overwhelming this Determined Soul once & once again;
Hopes, dreams, wonders holding fast in my gut,
but can’t get out of this calamitous hole…
from my gut….reflections of light seep through the darkening pit,
& each new burden, simultaneously fill My illuminations
…regurgitating this problem as it presents..
Life feeds me issues anew,
haven’t rid the sour taste prior, laying my palette
With no more tears,
I look over past years,
thinking all My choices were made, as best, as errors were corrected,
Yet I remain in society’s cesspit- a disposal of forgotten mess….
movements that are just acts of automated motions,
Only carefully thought, when involving my babies,
the reflections of hope, resembling light, remaining of My lone Self
Tired & Still,
I refuse to feel sorry for MySelf- for Me,
I know Who lies within the Depths unseen.
I “Must” continue on, in this surrounding, political shit!
Rousing & Inspiring My babies “To Be!”  “To Be!”
“To Be! Despite it all.  Fight from the beginning, Fight through it all….
Fight through the falls!  But “Be” Despite All Odds!!”

Angry, Aggravated, Pissed- Yes.
….at the Soul-Sucking Leeches,
exhausting the very survival of livelihood, of the working wo&man;
but Sorry for Me- No.
Never wanted to be rich,
Never have….
See-the rich are as miserable as broke- ones ain’t never had,
but the comfort of Contentment, Peace, Of Joy,
Of Smiles, of Yesses, and Sures,
 instead of no, not now, not this time, not this time,
not this time,
& maybe next time,
until, maybe they’ve forgotten- I hope…
but, in My heart remains the couldn’ts, Mama don’t have, didn’t haves,
Wish I could haves, wish I could…
No matter how much I work, no matter what I try to do….
I wanna say, “What’s the use?”…Work…this “life”
Fuck it all!!  At least I can spend quality time with them!!
….make My dreams Memories, Millions of feet tall….

Knowing….I have food to supply…Medications to buy,
School to instill, so on & so on…
I keep on going
In mechanical hell…
listening to the “get it together” stories of how somebody got it worse
& how somebody had it this way, when they were a child
Well ya know, I’m sorry you had it like that
& I’m grateful for healthy children…Thank My Master every chance I get!! ” I do!!”
but this is a new day & time
It should be better;  damn it it aint!!!!
I’m thankful for My struggles as a child,
because of them “I have the memories of strength to go on”
But, I will not use it for an excuse not to want or expect more!
……& I go on praying the love channeled between my children & I will contain My sanity,
…..& I pray I’m sane long enough to see, they’ve heard & followed Ma’s words to go “up” hill
from their 1st steps out, fighting like hell to stay at the top….
 “ If you should fall…. fight on the ground, come up fighting, but Don’t stop!” 
Once you’re on the bottom, in the middle even,….
It’s like a shoe’s heel over your head to keep you there…
In the Cesspit.

“You Be!”
5/23/12 © LeTisha.Bowie