Luminate

Eyeluminate spoken concerns of emotional distresses
the belly toilin’ pains and afflictions, holding your peace under arrest
Left abandoned in the darkness….
Ohhhh Lovessss I feel Your Souls rain down into my spaces
I see your anguished faces
in the night ….the tears of Souls that rain
but, I’ll steady shine, a magnetic energetic star in Our sleepless nights…
shinin not only mine own light, but the hidden glow of Your many hearts
I carry within

crushin’ biased opinions! from a bunch of dressed up lemons
stompin’ stereotypical judgments! Time dey take a damn hint!
dat buzzin’ roun’ our heads fuh years
achy jaws we’ll bear….
We chewin ignorant spewed un-thoughts rules layed out
that’ve been fillin’ our ears
Our Eyes, heads…hearts
Locked Our lives, no keys and the fears
….many a swallowed tears, beer-drunken in negativity
Now We spittin the shit that was ‘In’planted in reverse
We Standin’ One Strong

& Eye stand
Midst One!!
on ‘Root’ed years, of Our Ancient Dears
blood, bloodshed, Hearts & Souls gone
& yet with Us Still!
Feelin’ the achin’ backs of carried sacks,
of thrown stones in my bones
bore none of the burdens of my roots
those of old & yet new
& they’ve ached still withIn me
And Eye see & wear the soul wombs
the birthed
the birth nations, while shouldering the heavies
while walkin ancient fields, bleedin rivers,
buidin railroads, levees & their own plantations
Eye walk with them, with you
We do…
awake in my sleep
Eye See, Eye Stand
to seek, to learn, to reach, to teach …
Each One…
You are Me & Eye am You…
It is We that must stand to sow the seeds
that are Ours to see the harvest reap…
Can’t you see!?

These are the contractions of Ours…
Our pains to bear…
To choose or not…We bear them still
Our labor to reap….to moan…..
To choose or not we ache the lost…the bloodshed still
The contractions are Ours
to reap the benefits of Our sowing….as One
One People
OneNess…. Nations….
A Great People lost from time of the great antediluvian
Our light contained in a mental darkness
ill-taught, we didn’t know Our inner glow
thought our skin color was Our mentality
and it hovered like a black cloud hiding the truth!!
& the flickering still is! the light Eye bear withIn my soul
in my sleep awakening
in my conscious day
revealin the torment not only of me
of ruthLessness,
“sleepLess nights Eye see your stories….
Eye feel your inflictions…
shared with my awakened siblings,
with Our open Souls, achy feet- as we walk the mid-sleepLess night plantations…..
with ripped fingers, ripped backs, torn hands
bleeding Our Soul’s spills onto the pages & into lyrics”
Oh….how quickly we lost Self into pleasing…
Appeasing....into form-fitting…season after season….

Awakened nights inTo the silence,
revealed to me over and over…that I’m not awakened alone
but the vibrations hum into my soul
into letters, words….tones, notes and melodies
each One. Reach one. Teach one.
Embrace and Love “One”.
which is All…One Is.

movin forward on this road…
in the darkness of the midnight…. under Her moon’s light
Eye smile withIn a peacefulness
We must gain Control of Our Spiritual Minds
which cannot be contained
feeling Our InnHer Guides present
and the elevation that is in motion
…..dreaming into the faces of My Wombspring,
& All my Earthly Wombsping
In This Inevitable OneNess

Together
It is time
Seek. Learn. Teach
Release….the carried burdens of past,
remembering from where your strength has come
forever use your will….remember it as lessons to build
The bags…the sacks….carrying no names
Listen to Our Ancients withIn …
GodIs guiding….guarding with the energy flow of forever
InnHer Soul

Seek
Self….1st
Elevation….Uplifting
Self….1st
Knowing Self….1st
UpLifting All of Our broken hearts & minds
Healing Selves
No longer allowing past as barriers as walls!!
Crushin’ it, using the crumbles & brick pieces to step up & buildddd
building new walls blockin non-pertinent judgments of those irrelevant minds….
renewing mental slave blocked minds
Standin Onegether
digestin’ truth….planting seeds withIn the depth
Promoting growth through fertilized words of wisdom and truth
…..been livin barren land for years wonderin’ why there’s no progress..no progression
Gotten too comfortable with “just”
….too comfortable with “just enough”
that our growth has become stunted….took a rest from the fight & fell asleep
thinkin it was gonna still work out for your peeps!
Can You See?! It ain’t what you thought
Nor what you unconsciously think in your sleep
It’s time to Move….

Eye evolve from withIn for me, for you, for Ours
One
Guided by the powerFull
The non-understood, the rooted minds….
Soul Free in this Stipulated World, in which Our bodies exist
Eye’m sayin’ seek My Sisters & Brothers, the knowledge is withIn
Our bodies may suffer, and the world aint what it should be!!
It’s time to wake up…
rebuild…
All that takes place…in the manner of You!
Takes place with Your desires!
Our Inner… “What it Is!”
in the form of Your Power…Your Strength…
comes from withIn Us!

& Here..Now…..Know This!!

Our ‘Souls’ are Free!!

Let’s Git it!!!
.One Love.

© 1/3/13 (Mbali) LeTisha.Woods

HerStory

I hungrily ate each letter,

digested them gently, one by one,

& made words,

knowing the power that is HerStory,

the power she can’t see,

& power I can no longer let go undone

as I looked within Her full, dark eyes,

peering into a brain of resting wisdom,

I see hope through the severity of Her pain

the wanting of not even a shoulder,

but, just a listening ear,

an honest, understanding heart,

knowing the anguish held in for years

~~they don’t know!

they don’t even care!

they stare, & judge me, from rumors carried everywhere!

casting lines, hooking my spirit,

tearing my unhealed scars,

ripping my unhealed wounds,

because they don’t choose to know me~~

~~they don’t want to

never even tried,

they’ve hated me,

without knowing who I am inside,

they’ve rated me, based on some ungodly scale,

thinking this is the fate I’ve made for myself-

well they can all go to hell!~~

~~I’ve been down,

cracked out…yeah I’ve been at rock bottom’s bottom,

as they pointed & as they watch….shaking their heads…

& I don’t speak, I look..

Sometimes I’ve winked…just for the sake of it!!!~~

~~I’ve let them throw dirt & reopen old, yet barely healing wounds,

…..looking up at the moon,

I walk off to get my next hit,

covering the pain of a scarred over, infected wound….

just to make it another day~~

~~screaming inside, Wait!!!!!!!!!

You! You don’t know me!! You don’t know my fuckin’ story!!!

You… don’t knowww…wh..a.t it’s like….You know nothing!!! Hypocrites you!!

You.. you… think it’s too late, but I’ll show you. 

You!! who never cared enough to ask!!!

You!! who never gave a damn about a lil girl!!!!

You forgot me, but I’ll always remember you….

You never asked what happened to the smart lil girl….

….the educated lil sister….

that went from heaven to hell overnight!!!

You yellin’ you for the people!!!

You….walked away!!!

You….walked all over me like a piece of ass for sale…..

A lil girl!!! Trying to survive, all confused in this world…

of cruel adults….

Ohhh….How could you??? And then judge me!!!?

You never asked!!!

And then later….as I fell….still…you never asked….

……is there anything that you need?~~

But, she didn’t scream it,

the awakening women,

broken child,

she cried, within the safety of her high….

~~nor would I get on my knees, beg or plead!

to tell them My story…of my rape,

….to those who had no clue,

but gifted me hatred & judgment for years,

no I wouldn’t tell them of my stolen childhood,

….those who knew & swept it under the rug,

as if they could tell me how to deal with it,

as if they knew when enough time had passed,

like I could swat it away like a bug on my ass,

& as if they knew, when the nightmares would go away,

THEY HAVEN’T! I remember it, just like it was yesterday!

Oh NO! Not my blood, who walked over me,

Talked over me, & about me,

forgetting Sistah was never dumb,

….Just broken~~

~~& I’m smart enough that I must give thanks!

I still have the consciousness to say I want to overcome!

But, as I rise up,

I’ll never forget the theft of my lost blood,

the deception of my bloodline,

nor the blood that left me homeless,

But I’ll remember the Ones who help me now,

giving encouragement,

to stand,

to give to My loves~~

~~I’ll never forget the religious families, the righteous families,

my preacher uncle, the combination…

who raped the lil girl I was,

& tried to steal My Soul~~

She told.

© 9/8/12 LeTisha.Woods.Bowie

Do ya know what I mean? Everythang that glitter ain’t gold; a house is to have; a home is to hold.

I tell ya I don’ need glitter & all da precious gems dat gleam

Dat my heart’s desires are simpla’ than man’s physical means

Do ya know what I mean? ……

I see you….

…..lookin’ thru yo beautiful, mystifyin’, black onyx eyes,

into your garnet, Jagged Edge’s heart’s window,

blowin’ love’s songs thru  

melodic sharp painful tunes

of a deep hidden past,

mufflin’ secret melodies,

like they’re ya last

I see da love dwellin’ deep inside!!

Let me in!!!

There’s no longa da need to hide behind fear and pride

for fear of surrenderin’ yo’self again

…..holdin’ memories of a theft gon’

 of the breakin’, the enterin’ and shatterin’ of yo  precious heart

don’t go lookin’ in the same place ya starrrt--ed

where she stole like a pirate, from the places I’m tryin’ to fill

robbin’ yo riches to complete her po’ self

with the everythang that money or jewels can’t purchase-

Eye am the woman at yo side

Are ya gon take this ride

I’m yo Queen, You my King.

….you don’t seem to comprehen’ these things…

that You My Milk Chocolat’ on Valentines Ever’Day,

My Diamond heart wrapped aroun’ my finger….

I see ya, I feel yo trepidation,

But yo mind seems to carry yo heart in diverse directions.

gotta play it hard as a steel nail

I’m not gon try and break into yo shell

cuz love is free, I thought you knew

else I’d be that thief in the night,

Stealin’ yo jewels

When I tell you my emeralds grow from Mother Earth’s trees

Can ya feel me?

Do you grasp what I mean?....

ain’t a thang wrong with buyin’ gifts –

It’s like dessert

not required to fulfill, at times fulfillment exceeds the desire,

But it’s a sweet topping still

Hey babe, I’m sayin’!!! ….beans don’t buy love……

Ice cream ain’t gon replace no meals,

Rubies don’t climb life’s hills,

Sapphires don’t pay bills,

topaz, wild fresh water pearls….

….all are rare, as true love that last lifetimes

…but my neck can be bare ya see

& you and I shouldn’t have a care

& true free soul love from da depths of our beings,

dat radiates thru-out us,

suppressin’ all other thoughts and feelings

is all dat we have……

Material thangs can’t climb mountains!!!

Love will.

Hand in hand, we’ll watch sapphire rivers from topaz lands,

drinkin' ruby wine,

conversin’ on jade grass,

discussin’ houses that ain’t really homes

I’m just tryna speak of some thangs you may not wanna comprehend…

Many sparklies come dressed up as pretennnd-ers,

in fancy disguises, looking like 24k

to brighten your one day

& you may choose to find just what you seek

tryna fill da shoes of a house ya can’t keep

I’m wondrin’ if you hear my soul speakin’ when I ask….

It’s cuz what’s a question today, will soon be a fact

…..leavin’ a peaceful home, for a house of stones

Yo’ ass gon be lone

Someone else gon’ figure home and love out,

embracin' what you left for a house

Everythang that glitter ain’t gold.

Urth Eagle

©LeTisha.Bowie 7/11/12