Freedom

I knew you weren't the deepest 
nor largest chocolate chip in the cookie,
but you were the heart, 
robustly standing out in the pack,
& I'm a Queen...
been searching for EverLasting...
Suppose as time progressed 
& I called you King
& you looked perplexed..

Should've been a clue to the rest...
Yet you 
determined to no longer be misunderstood 
as less, 
Or pushed to the back...

Filled my ears...
my head with heart, dreams, goals, 
& the hopes that this could last..
& the deep love for your daughters,
took made my heart a gasp,
Touched me as rare, ambitious, 
With an imagery spread wide & vast...
Over spring & summer rides...
& fall conversations...laughter & smiles

Your heart captured again...
A friend...
The hidden girl- behind the world,
Behind pains & sorrows unanswered,
Buried under shattered pieces of Her piles of self...

I lifted Me for another chance 
to share My Love...My Life... My Dance...
To be your wife...to take your hand...
'Til death do us part'
You were my man...

As love bloomed...so did doom
Trying this & that... 
trying to assume
What else to do?..what else to give?...
How do we live?...this way...

But i continued to grow within mySelf,
Because I've always been a Seeker...
WithIn Me... I found refugee
You...content standing still, 
shouting demands...
Questioning My elevation... 
with your man-house stances...
Rolling your eyes at my knowledge seeking...
internal wheels in motion 
& you refused to embrace the notion 
of "such nonsense"....
"Irrelevance"
No interest at'al...
in anything i loved...
"Ugh do yo have to sing? "
"What you reading now?!"
"Yeah let me see...uh huh...is that goin' to sale?
..Why you paint stuff like that? 
Ain't nobody here gon' buy stuff like that"

No embracing or inspiration
but I inspired mySelf 
& My kids inspired me...
think Ma a professional...
"They should put you in a gallery!!"
... and they always bring daily glee!

& soon i asked Who are you? Where did he go? 
What's really....Going on? 
We've lost love...focus...hope...support...
this is no longer a home...just a house
filled with misery

You're back there & I'm in constant motion!
Seeking Me
Self
Elevation
Self-education
Forwardness...
& you're content
& you look at me like I'm clueless 
when it's you
...you could care less
& I no longer care that you don't
For my efforts have been & are useless...
with you

You placed duck tape on my mouth,
Bound my voice,
And condescended my growth....
We grew into business partners
& I've gotten fucked out of the deal
Taken care of my business for years,
Having to squeeze time in 
just to take care of Me,
but Will gives Me strength...

No touches, kisses, or hugs....
jus bitchin' 
& i ain't a bitcher,
it waste My energy...
Unless fully provoked, 
then I knew...
The road had hit The Dead End...
Don't like to be pushed to defend 
My Own InnerSelf
When you don't even know yourSelf

Wondered for a bit... 
how I allowed it to go on so long
But a fighter gon stand 
to the very last straw
Allowed My Soul to be smothered,
My kids to suffer...
Fighting the battle for love...
Remembering & knowing 
true love can conquer all...

But the dart you threw clean through my heart
Caused me to trip, fall, come to my senses... 
The sight of my own blood & soul shed,
As you looked down & walked through it
Like...write about that
...so I did

Layin' listening to the distant voices of my Wombspring
Was My blood transfusion...
My confirmation... 
of My Resurrection to Rise up for Eye Am!
A Conqueror
A Survivor
More than a mental slave of an imitation protector/provider
What My Soul pours & Reflects...
Eye will open My wings & continue to project...
I've fled mySelf to save My Life!
Your departure is welcome
Subtracting your strife,
you've given Me... My Daughter & lessons learned...
what you've given us is... 
more than you'll ever comprehend
Freedom!!!

© 10/16/12 LeTisha.Woods

Because of You

When I can’t seem to let go of life’s venomous loves,

I take hold in combat, knowing in the future, 

as you encounter such, 

you must learn when your love’s freedom is to be claimed;

When ends management can’t seem to be met, 

I take these ends & connect them my securest, 

because, one day, you too will meet these circumstances;

When darkness violates the celestial aurora,

& my vision rest obscured,

I admit my lit soul to reflect determination,

providing preserved optimism,

refusal of death,

One day these portions may come your way…

This is your survival from within…

When morning reaches me & I’m tired of its confrontations,

I rise again & again,

taking Her hand,

knowing this wars’ success isn’t only mine,

that we will all conquer defeat…

that we all ascend!

When My anger speaks flames to injustice & maltreatment,

It’s so!

I’ll set hell on fire!!,

so you will learn not to stand for just anything.

When I channel peace & endure at calm,

& you see patience in an inferno,

My soul says be still…

In this life you must make for your own repose.

Stand Still.

Know that My frowns, My tears, 

My wrath…My Dears, 

are not for you to worry or fear;

For You are more than my reasons for being here…

You are my reasons for go---ing,

my reasons for know---ing…more each day.

my continuously grow---ing,

My Forever’s, 

my never let---ting go---ing!

My smile, after the fears,

My laughter, after the tears,

This life is only mere, 

to the lives you’ve given me for years…

My Children…The Breaths of My Womb,

My Morning’s Wake-ings’,

Evening’s Persevere-ings’,

Midnight’s Dream-ings’,

My Reasons for Live-ings’.

Urth Eagle Tisha©LeTisha.Bowie 6/1/12

To My Loves I Choose You

If my last breath is but a deep, soulful hum,
beginning a word & ending a delicate, solely letter;
I’ll leave its value to you, 
…its worth to the lives I birthed.

If I leave no millions, if I leave no gold, 
My goal is to leave no debt.
If only I’ll have the land I live, 
I’ll leave it… 
as a safe haven, in the event, you of mine need rest.

If my visions or words have inspired no souls while I’m here,
and it is only you, that hold its value,
If my voice…my songs don’t get an everlasting deal….
I’m O.K. knowing, it’s left in your hearts, as your Heaven, 
….places where it will flourish ever & radiate anew.

If I never buy you all that you desire…
of all that society has thrown in your faces,
You’re grateful, and for that, I know that I am already blessed!

If I can’t get you all that you want, 
know that I give you all that you need,
and try to give you some of your wishes, 
on this corrupt path placed before us.

If time or life takes a dogged twist, 
before I hug you once more or give you one last kiss…..

I’ll have antecedently given you My everlasting kisses, hugs, & love,
to carry within you now & for miles, of life with no end;
My Spirit of strength, determination & endurance in piles,
to soar all heights!

If I never publish a book or record a song,
I know that I’ve locked my voice & words, within the securest safes ever…
….to breath,
from within the breaths, of the souls of My Wombspring,
the sparkles of hope, superseding doubt in my eyes,
the sunshine, creeping through the clouds of fear….
the loves of My life,
my many reasons to fight;

I choose You, for all that have, all that I don’t, 
all that I will and all that I won’t
Because, You will!
To me....nothing else amounts.

You must always retain/ You are to always to remember!
You are worth All that You Are.
Never accept less than you deserve.
Know Your Worth!!
Loving you & Love you Eternally,
Mama

Urth Eagle Tisha
©LeTisha.Bowie 6/12/12

Mental Slavery II.... The Black People's Path of Survival

©LeTisha.Bowie 3/25/25

Take a Yo' Hell an' Yo' Wheels

Take A Yo' Hell An' Yo' Wheels by Urth Eagle

“LoveTransformstipulations”

bald.

nappy.

bushy.

curls-tight.

It is who I am. It is my birthright!

head,

thighs,

arms,

butt’s all getting’ bigger;

Ignored the lives carried, throughout My life;

Body transformations you see?

Yes.  The obvious, it is that you observe.

Absorb.

My Soul's Love’s reflections, you’ve neglected;

-I’m determined to focus on elevating My Mind’s Intellect.

Education.

Spiritual levitation.

Penetrating the always transforming, exterior visuals you depreciate;

pushing….advancing…enduring in life……I stand. 

spine of alloy……I stand.

consistent with My conviction to learn more of Me! I stand!

eliminating callowness that surrounds me;

trimming physical and mental weight simultaneously,

Knowing your thoughts are simple,

Yet if allowed, your words severe……

Thing Is~

As you’re viewing my exterior transformations, intellectually at halt

My mental revelations ….my emergence will have surpassed you

 All along, as Life sets Her Mastery Scene

My soul….My heart…. It had incessantly remained

Ever-growing, but always reserving Her same love;

With all you perceived with your eyes,

Deep within My Heart’s Soul, my loe, still rested

Eye Content as Am….happily black, bushy, & thick;

I am, as well, renewed and lighter in all ways

How?

How? Now, do you ask me to accept your stipulated love?

There are no stipulations in love

Love gives, unconditionally

Love pours, like an overflowing tub of warm peppermint bath

Love feels, like warm coconut milk overflowing beautiful, brown smoothness

Love’s touch is your flesh….my flesh…..which, is no longer he and she, but we

Love is not 2 but, the connection of Souls, who have become “One”

Love is the part of Souls that is The Over-comer of the hell that life presents,

Giving Lovers the strength to carry on….!!

Love Just Is!!

True love “cannot” transform to stipulations.

True Love can not only transform stipulations,

She makes them non-existent.

© LeTisha.Bowie “Urth Eagle” 12/2011

D.E.T.E.R.M.I.N.A.T.I.O.N.

D.E.T.E.R.M.I.N.A.T.I.O.N. by Urth Eagle D.E.T.E.R.M.I.N.A.T.I.O.N. D……estined to achieve-bred powerfully confident- I will fight! E…..ven when the odds are against me, will not fall and stay down T….oo beneficial to just remain idle and allow advantages to pass E….ach and every opportunity – I want to take and educate myself at mass R….ising above the average standards by all means accessible M….esmerized by life’s ill conditions, I want elevation at new levels I….ncreasing knowledge, love and dignity in human existence N…ever having the audacity to settle for today’s circumstances A…..always remembering the lessons of my grand-ma T…eaching me to “Stand tall! be wise!” and repeatedly saying, “Be I…ntelligent!” – This message she left for us all O…n this journey I have decided to stand for what I believe N….ever give up and live each day to the fullest to “my” potential….. To set an example for my royal offspring… “You can be and do your every desire, just give all of your determination with that God-give fire!” © LeTisha.Bowie 2011