undress my soul?

he says he cares enough to undress my soul,
that his stomach can digest whatever lies beneath these heart's peels,
says his love is unlike any I've known, a story I've heard before,
but let's not rewind,
you say it is strong enough to turn back the layers,
even those healed & sealed over, reaching the core of me,
where you can bury your heart here, for safe keeping....
...call it Home
I'll just let you know...actions are the bones,
which hold the foundation together,
despite my warnings that, “this here ain't no play thang...
see the stratum withIn Me, has been composed of a tougher skin,
with each day's lesson....learning that it doesn't bare the thinness
of the new lovers, in love, in the new beginnings”
….a protection, from love's enemies,
holding not one bit of respect, for the places of entering,
willing to open One,
strip by strip,
with the intention of body embraces,
a dip...splashing...then, make a dashing disappearance act....
unaware of the wiser's soul power,
foreseeing the lust, & I must let you know the deeper you get,
you best put your big boy drawers up,
withIn ....lives my profundity, none to be reckoned with,
if you want to play, don't put 'you' in the position to get caught
withIn my strata,
wrapped in a weaved web, which regurgitates the artificial,
my taste buds recognize authenticity sooner, rather than later,
synthetically placed emotions, have built Me a stronger core,
impostors....cause my soul to enfold, once more protecting Eye Am,
if you care enough to undress my soul...
one layer at a time.... will reach you, my depth
& if you find yourself meeting me here,
uncovered will be the agape love,
one for the never-forgetting


© 8/27/13 LeTisha.W. Bowie

Freedom

I knew you weren't the deepest 
nor largest chocolate chip in the cookie,
but you were the heart, 
robustly standing out in the pack,
& I'm a Queen...
been searching for EverLasting...
Suppose as time progressed 
& I called you King
& you looked perplexed..

Should've been a clue to the rest...
Yet you 
determined to no longer be misunderstood 
as less, 
Or pushed to the back...

Filled my ears...
my head with heart, dreams, goals, 
& the hopes that this could last..
& the deep love for your daughters,
took made my heart a gasp,
Touched me as rare, ambitious, 
With an imagery spread wide & vast...
Over spring & summer rides...
& fall conversations...laughter & smiles

Your heart captured again...
A friend...
The hidden girl- behind the world,
Behind pains & sorrows unanswered,
Buried under shattered pieces of Her piles of self...

I lifted Me for another chance 
to share My Love...My Life... My Dance...
To be your wife...to take your hand...
'Til death do us part'
You were my man...

As love bloomed...so did doom
Trying this & that... 
trying to assume
What else to do?..what else to give?...
How do we live?...this way...

But i continued to grow within mySelf,
Because I've always been a Seeker...
WithIn Me... I found refugee
You...content standing still, 
shouting demands...
Questioning My elevation... 
with your man-house stances...
Rolling your eyes at my knowledge seeking...
internal wheels in motion 
& you refused to embrace the notion 
of "such nonsense"....
"Irrelevance"
No interest at'al...
in anything i loved...
"Ugh do yo have to sing? "
"What you reading now?!"
"Yeah let me see...uh huh...is that goin' to sale?
..Why you paint stuff like that? 
Ain't nobody here gon' buy stuff like that"

No embracing or inspiration
but I inspired mySelf 
& My kids inspired me...
think Ma a professional...
"They should put you in a gallery!!"
... and they always bring daily glee!

& soon i asked Who are you? Where did he go? 
What's really....Going on? 
We've lost love...focus...hope...support...
this is no longer a home...just a house
filled with misery

You're back there & I'm in constant motion!
Seeking Me
Self
Elevation
Self-education
Forwardness...
& you're content
& you look at me like I'm clueless 
when it's you
...you could care less
& I no longer care that you don't
For my efforts have been & are useless...
with you

You placed duck tape on my mouth,
Bound my voice,
And condescended my growth....
We grew into business partners
& I've gotten fucked out of the deal
Taken care of my business for years,
Having to squeeze time in 
just to take care of Me,
but Will gives Me strength...

No touches, kisses, or hugs....
jus bitchin' 
& i ain't a bitcher,
it waste My energy...
Unless fully provoked, 
then I knew...
The road had hit The Dead End...
Don't like to be pushed to defend 
My Own InnerSelf
When you don't even know yourSelf

Wondered for a bit... 
how I allowed it to go on so long
But a fighter gon stand 
to the very last straw
Allowed My Soul to be smothered,
My kids to suffer...
Fighting the battle for love...
Remembering & knowing 
true love can conquer all...

But the dart you threw clean through my heart
Caused me to trip, fall, come to my senses... 
The sight of my own blood & soul shed,
As you looked down & walked through it
Like...write about that
...so I did

Layin' listening to the distant voices of my Wombspring
Was My blood transfusion...
My confirmation... 
of My Resurrection to Rise up for Eye Am!
A Conqueror
A Survivor
More than a mental slave of an imitation protector/provider
What My Soul pours & Reflects...
Eye will open My wings & continue to project...
I've fled mySelf to save My Life!
Your departure is welcome
Subtracting your strife,
you've given Me... My Daughter & lessons learned...
what you've given us is... 
more than you'll ever comprehend
Freedom!!!

© 10/16/12 LeTisha.Woods