Freedom

I knew you weren't the deepest nor largest chocolate chip in the cookie,

but you were the heart, robustly standing out in the pack,

& I'm a Queen...been searching for EverLasting...

Suppose as time progressed & I called you King

& you looked perplexed..

Should've been a clue to the rest...

Yet you determined to no longer be misunderstood as less, 

Or pushed to the back...

Filled my ears...

my head with heart, dreams, goals, 

& the hopes that this could last..

& the deep love for your daughters,

took made my heart a gasp,

Touched me as rare, ambitious, 

With an imagery spread wide & vast...

Over spring & summer rides...

& fall conversations...

laughter & smiles

Your heart captured again...

A friend...

The hidden girl- behind the world,

Behind pains & sorrows unanswered,

Buried under shattered pieces of Her piles of self...

I lifted Me for another chance to share My Love...

My Life...

My Dance...

To be your wife...

to take your hand...

'Til death do us part

You were my man...

As love bloomed...

so did doom

Trying this & that... 

trying to assume

What else to do?..

what else to give?...

How do we live?

...this way...

But i continued to grow within mySelf,

Because I've always been a Seeker...

WithIn Me... I found refugee

You...content standing still, 

shouting demands...

Questioning My elevation... 

with your man-house stances...

Rolling your eyes at my knowledge seeking...

internal wheels in motion 

& you refused to embrace the notion 

     of "such nonsense"....

Irrelevance

No interest at'al...

in anything i loved..

"Ugh do yo have to sing? "

"What you reading now?!"

"Yeah let me see...uh huh...

is that goin' to sale?..

Why you paint stuff like that? 

Ain't nobody here gon' buy stuff like that"

No embracing or inspiration

but I inspired mySelf

 & My kids inspired me..

.think Ma a professional...

"They should put you in a gallery!!"

... and they always bring daily glee!

& soon i asked Who are you?

Where did he go? 

What's really....Going on? 

We've lost love...

focus...hope...support...

this is no longer a home...

just a house filled with misery

You're back there

& I'm in constant motion!

Seeking Me

SelfElevation

Self-education

Forwardness...

& you're content

& you look at me like I'm clueless 

when it's you..

.you could care less

& I no longer care that you don't

For my efforts have been & are useless...

with you

You placed duck tape on my mouth,

Bound my voice,

And condescended my growth....

We grew into business partners

& I've gotten fucked out of the deal

Taken care of my business for years,

Having to squeeze time in just to take care of Me,

but Will gives Me strength...

No touches, kisses, or hugs...

.jus bitchin' & i ain't a bitcher

,it waste My energy...

Unless fully provoked, 

then I knew...

The road had hit The Dead End...

Don't like to be pushed to defend 

My Own InnerSelf

When you don't even know yourSelf

Wondered for a bit... 

how I allowed it to go on so long

But a fighter gon stand to the very last straw

Allowed My Soul to be smothered,

My kids to suffer...

Fighting the battle for love...

Remembering & knowing true love can conquer all...

But the dart you threw clean through my heart

Caused me to trip,

fall,

come to my senses... 

The sight of my own blood & soul shed,

As you looked down & walked through it

Like...write about that...

so I did

Layin' listening to the distant voices of my Wombspring

Was My blood transfusion...

My confirmation... 

of My Resurrection to Rise up for Eye Am!

A Conqueror

A Survivor

More than a mental slave of an imitation protector/provider

What My Soul pours & Reflects...

Eye will open My wings & continue to project...

I've fled mySelf to save My Life!

Your departure is welcome

Subtracting your strife,

you've given Me...

My Daughter & lessons learned...

what you've given us is... 

more than you'll ever comprehend

Freedom!!!

© 10/16/12 LeTisha.Woods

Freedom

I knew you weren't the deepest 
nor largest chocolate chip in the cookie,
but you were the heart, 
robustly standing out in the pack,
& I'm a Queen...
been searching for EverLasting...
Suppose as time progressed 
& I called you King
& you looked perplexed..

Should've been a clue to the rest...
Yet you 
determined to no longer be misunderstood 
as less, 
Or pushed to the back...

Filled my ears...
my head with heart, dreams, goals, 
& the hopes that this could last..
& the deep love for your daughters,
took made my heart a gasp,
Touched me as rare, ambitious, 
With an imagery spread wide & vast...
Over spring & summer rides...
& fall conversations...laughter & smiles

Your heart captured again...
A friend...
The hidden girl- behind the world,
Behind pains & sorrows unanswered,
Buried under shattered pieces of Her piles of self...

I lifted Me for another chance 
to share My Love...My Life... My Dance...
To be your wife...to take your hand...
'Til death do us part'
You were my man...

As love bloomed...so did doom
Trying this & that... 
trying to assume
What else to do?..what else to give?...
How do we live?...this way...

But i continued to grow within mySelf,
Because I've always been a Seeker...
WithIn Me... I found refugee
You...content standing still, 
shouting demands...
Questioning My elevation... 
with your man-house stances...
Rolling your eyes at my knowledge seeking...
internal wheels in motion 
& you refused to embrace the notion 
of "such nonsense"....
"Irrelevance"
No interest at'al...
in anything i loved...
"Ugh do yo have to sing? "
"What you reading now?!"
"Yeah let me see...uh huh...is that goin' to sale?
..Why you paint stuff like that? 
Ain't nobody here gon' buy stuff like that"

No embracing or inspiration
but I inspired mySelf 
& My kids inspired me...
think Ma a professional...
"They should put you in a gallery!!"
... and they always bring daily glee!

& soon i asked Who are you? Where did he go? 
What's really....Going on? 
We've lost love...focus...hope...support...
this is no longer a home...just a house
filled with misery

You're back there & I'm in constant motion!
Seeking Me
Self
Elevation
Self-education
Forwardness...
& you're content
& you look at me like I'm clueless 
when it's you
...you could care less
& I no longer care that you don't
For my efforts have been & are useless...
with you

You placed duck tape on my mouth,
Bound my voice,
And condescended my growth....
We grew into business partners
& I've gotten fucked out of the deal
Taken care of my business for years,
Having to squeeze time in 
just to take care of Me,
but Will gives Me strength...

No touches, kisses, or hugs....
jus bitchin' 
& i ain't a bitcher,
it waste My energy...
Unless fully provoked, 
then I knew...
The road had hit The Dead End...
Don't like to be pushed to defend 
My Own InnerSelf
When you don't even know yourSelf

Wondered for a bit... 
how I allowed it to go on so long
But a fighter gon stand 
to the very last straw
Allowed My Soul to be smothered,
My kids to suffer...
Fighting the battle for love...
Remembering & knowing 
true love can conquer all...

But the dart you threw clean through my heart
Caused me to trip, fall, come to my senses... 
The sight of my own blood & soul shed,
As you looked down & walked through it
Like...write about that
...so I did

Layin' listening to the distant voices of my Wombspring
Was My blood transfusion...
My confirmation... 
of My Resurrection to Rise up for Eye Am!
A Conqueror
A Survivor
More than a mental slave of an imitation protector/provider
What My Soul pours & Reflects...
Eye will open My wings & continue to project...
I've fled mySelf to save My Life!
Your departure is welcome
Subtracting your strife,
you've given Me... My Daughter & lessons learned...
what you've given us is... 
more than you'll ever comprehend
Freedom!!!

© 10/16/12 LeTisha.Woods

I was Wonderin’…

Good Morning Honey… Hi…

I was wonderin’…

If you only knew that I’ve been dedicatedly, interlaced,

within the place, that should’ve sacredly held me star-struck & captive,

all of my soul’s lovin’ days

and if….if you knew,

that the…the standard vows that have me crossed over & under,

imperfectly woven together,

like some genuine leather & a bit of pleather,

threads snip-slipping at seams here & there,

held together by the care of one lover’s value of it…..

holding tight, not by the momentum of a love crafters skills,

as ours….

….was wondering if you knew the…the…that…

your best wishes greet the stains of my tears,

from the unanswered dull pain, that remains,

another fractured piece my soul holds,

where the Sun’s rain should permeate drizzlin’ kisses

trying…

weary…

I’ve tried not to…to be, but have grown….

& cold,

icicles mold, forming barriers,

sealing the cracks of my heart,

protecting the trap of another lovers game

reminiscing of a underwater divers’ heart…

lovemotions of taking a giant dip into warm, chocolate soul waves,

of the warmth of your welcoming embrace,

the place where blue-birds’ breasts clap,

butterflies in formation…

as they create cupid’s arrow and shoot through …

to the whispering fairies….

as they tell their tales,

of two strange lovers rewriting love,

watching where tears fall, in adoration

from the painful delight in the reverence of the reciprocation

of love,

as cupids butterfly arrow charges anew…

creating ancient, earthly colored patterns,

woven by the 1^st Adam,

drippin’s flow, from the introduction of new,

watery eyes, a shivering heart,

heating as we greet…welcoming arms…

body embracements….friendly thighs….

trembling souls….and a welcoming know-ing

when dreams were meant to be dreamed…

& with expectations, that they could one day be, 

of the respect, touches, & desires….

in all ways…. for always

thinking back….

as I always want to be a person of my word,

here…feeling trapped in a web of “til death do us part”

a one sided web-vow, wondering…. “Who wrote this shit?

Is it legit? or is it that some choose to just rewrite the script?”

they’ve trapped my heart…

daily awakening with an inner delight,

to search, for the light to my way…

I look up….

for the smile to each of my days…

it’s like…

“reaching up to grab sunflower seeds with a belly full of giggles”

& delighting in how you tickle me silly…..

& then I’m like really?

if it’s the art of poetry….

the melody of song….that carries me along…

that lifts my day…..

…while I live the choices that I’ve made…..

Today I smiled.

I was wonderin’ if you knew.

© 9/25/12 LeTisha.Woods.Bowie

Because of You

When I can’t seem to let go of life’s venomous loves,

I take hold in combat, knowing in the future, 

as you encounter such, 

you must learn when your love’s freedom is to be claimed;

When ends management can’t seem to be met, 

I take these ends & connect them my securest, 

because, one day, you too will meet these circumstances;

When darkness violates the celestial aurora,

& my vision rest obscured,

I admit my lit soul to reflect determination,

providing preserved optimism,

refusal of death,

One day these portions may come your way…

This is your survival from within…

When morning reaches me & I’m tired of its confrontations,

I rise again & again,

taking Her hand,

knowing this wars’ success isn’t only mine,

that we will all conquer defeat…

that we all ascend!

When My anger speaks flames to injustice & maltreatment,

It’s so!

I’ll set hell on fire!!,

so you will learn not to stand for just anything.

When I channel peace & endure at calm,

& you see patience in an inferno,

My soul says be still…

In this life you must make for your own repose.

Stand Still.

Know that My frowns, My tears, 

My wrath…My Dears, 

are not for you to worry or fear;

For You are more than my reasons for being here…

You are my reasons for go---ing,

my reasons for know---ing…more each day.

my continuously grow---ing,

My Forever’s, 

my never let---ting go---ing!

My smile, after the fears,

My laughter, after the tears,

This life is only mere, 

to the lives you’ve given me for years…

My Children…The Breaths of My Womb,

My Morning’s Wake-ings’,

Evening’s Persevere-ings’,

Midnight’s Dream-ings’,

My Reasons for Live-ings’.

Urth Eagle Tisha©LeTisha.Bowie 6/1/12