Beast Love for My Sistahs Spoken Word

Do ya know what I mean? Everythang that glitter ain’t gold; a house is to have; a home is to hold.

I tell ya I don’ need glitter & all da precious gems dat gleam

Dat my heart’s desires are simpla’ than man’s physical means

Do ya know what I mean? ……

I see you….

…..lookin’ thru yo beautiful, mystifyin’, black onyx eyes,

into your garnet, Jagged Edge’s heart’s window,

blowin’ love’s songs thru  

melodic sharp painful tunes

of a deep hidden past,

mufflin’ secret melodies,

like they’re ya last

I see da love dwellin’ deep inside!!

Let me in!!!

There’s no longa da need to hide behind fear and pride

for fear of surrenderin’ yo’self again

…..holdin’ memories of a theft gon’

 of the breakin’, the enterin’ and shatterin’ of yo  precious heart

don’t go lookin’ in the same place ya starrrt--ed

where she stole like a pirate, from the places I’m tryin’ to fill

robbin’ yo riches to complete her po’ self

with the everythang that money or jewels can’t purchase-

Eye am the woman at yo side

Are ya gon take this ride

I’m yo Queen, You my King.

….you don’t seem to comprehen’ these things…

that You My Milk Chocolat’ on Valentines Ever’Day,

My Diamond heart wrapped aroun’ my finger….

I see ya, I feel yo trepidation,

But yo mind seems to carry yo heart in diverse directions.

gotta play it hard as a steel nail

I’m not gon try and break into yo shell

cuz love is free, I thought you knew

else I’d be that thief in the night,

Stealin’ yo jewels

When I tell you my emeralds grow from Mother Earth’s trees

Can ya feel me?

Do you grasp what I mean?....

ain’t a thang wrong with buyin’ gifts –

It’s like dessert

not required to fulfill, at times fulfillment exceeds the desire,

But it’s a sweet topping still

Hey babe, I’m sayin’!!! ….beans don’t buy love……

Ice cream ain’t gon replace no meals,

Rubies don’t climb life’s hills,

Sapphires don’t pay bills,

topaz, wild fresh water pearls….

….all are rare, as true love that last lifetimes

…but my neck can be bare ya see

& you and I shouldn’t have a care

& true free soul love from da depths of our beings,

dat radiates thru-out us,

suppressin’ all other thoughts and feelings

is all dat we have……

Material thangs can’t climb mountains!!!

Love will.

Hand in hand, we’ll watch sapphire rivers from topaz lands,

drinkin' ruby wine,

conversin’ on jade grass,

discussin’ houses that ain’t really homes

I’m just tryna speak of some thangs you may not wanna comprehend…

Many sparklies come dressed up as pretennnd-ers,

in fancy disguises, looking like 24k

to brighten your one day

& you may choose to find just what you seek

tryna fill da shoes of a house ya can’t keep

I’m wondrin’ if you hear my soul speakin’ when I ask….

It’s cuz what’s a question today, will soon be a fact

…..leavin’ a peaceful home, for a house of stones

Yo’ ass gon be lone

Someone else gon’ figure home and love out,

embracin' what you left for a house

Everythang that glitter ain’t gold.

Urth Eagle

©LeTisha.Bowie 7/11/12

Soul (Sole) Journey

Soul (Sole) Journey ~Interim~ “Then” “When” She meditates…. You see the physical being….existing Going about mechanical motions of life She knows the expected….the predicted, reoccurring shuffles of ever day…. and moves rotating in the Woman’s stereotypical life; the tendencies of quick, habitual, repetitious movements…..rotations, over and over, mundanity, insanity; tick tocks if Her inner-clock, Self-set automatic alarms, that have taken place of life’s spontaneity; repetitiously …tick. tock. day in. day out. year after year – ~“Now”~ she thinks of an ol’ dishrag, who has lost its color and flair, who’s daily performances, of the same… ol’ rag…worn, even so….performs its duties tick. tock. like Her…like a Woman ‘pose to “He thinks I’m a machine”……and thinking……. ~“Then, when 2 became 1”~ actually held possibilities of ~“When”~ “When” hope compelled him, and dreams inspired Her”….and “When” we had destinations to clench…. ~“Then”~ ……..we did….~Then~..…. together we “knew” the magical nexus that could be cultivated… ~“Then”~ ………..”Then” time paid Her debt…. ~“Now”~ in……. ~Interim~ She sits wondering ~“When”~ ~“When?”~ Where? went When? “ To be? “ Us? “Can the damaged, idle machine that –you- see….tick. tock. TICK. TOCK. Can you activate it?” “Can the damage, within Her, be repaired?…… …..forcing dreams, hopes, and lovin’, to work Her voodoo again?” ……“Once” there were no mechanical mechanisms running our lives”…. ~“Then”~…. And “Now” ~Interim~ in Her mechanical shuffles and robotic efforts… My inner sparkle is a lit fire, singing flaming-tones of redemption, …..burning through this temporary carcass Reclamation! Realizing that My dreams, desires, My being are within a contraption of the man-made, physical conceptions, of who I should be You see…..These ill-fitting mechanisms, fit the average, but they don’t fit Me “His feelings are his own” “Theirs belong to them” “Mine are in here”….The Eye that Am- “He doesn’t see, and never understood- I see, “Now” It’s the pigeonhole “all” are accustomed to….The “all” that has most mentally ensnared….The “all’s” puzzle that I have “never” been a piece of…that I will never complete….because I Am Me. ~“Now”~ Standing Still- Knowing that Eye’m One of My Own Kind- Accept Me Or Not We are Standing Still- Strangers and Strangely Friends, Lovers Even? “I wonder? ~”When”~ “When did this all take place?” “When will promise & vows fill interim’s position?” ….when all along my words have been mere knowing refusal has taken a strong formation to waste wasted time wasted life wasted effort….energies refusal of anymore waste of Self unrecognized preciousness……Individuality of Being “I refuse….I refuse to relinquish Who Eye Am” To be “Me” ~& Interim~ “I will no longer remain……living, awaiting death” “She needed him to hear” He listened, but didn’t comprehend: Her Soul’s sharing, Her Soul’s love Her Soul’s searching My Soul’s Heart’s breaking, for non-kept commitments, ones….meant forever to be pleasured and treasured…. Only seeing Me as an apparatus, that makes live livable & functional- “He’s missing the best of Who She is” ……in his contentment with the man-made, physical conceptions of what life should be….. “Within! My Free-Spirit runs wild, like an untamed buck, painting abstract canvases, only conscious-minds comprehend!!, creating songs from my soul, that have never been told!!, writing what starts as short stanzas, and up here ► emotions later…thoughts later…...pages la…..ter” “I am the lover of land, of flowers, of earth, of life and of the bearth of it!, in all of its beauties and all of its miraculous forms; I am the lover of everything that life’s worth, and of You.” …..sitting no longer, and ended meditation……….. “TODAY”…… I am a soaring eagle…….flying solo….. For my wings have grown tired, as I look over to see that you’re no longer flying in My wind, helpin’ to balancing the weight- helping to make this flight- ….it is, because you think that your thoughts are the only correct ones, that my wings have begun to squeak- I looked left and realized that my wings have taken metallicity….. I looked right and I see tarnish, but I know the shine that dwells beneath… I’m at dock “now” ….no longer flying, because the weight is too heavy ~& Interim Now…Today~ My bloom is at halt, having thought…. we were blooming together- planting a field of life-seeds, womb-spring, and moon-love…… Cultivating newness in all forms…… -I am a lone lotus A sole survivor My strength is magniloquence. Enough. Standing. “I remain- Me….in Life’s Flight In Life’s Fight” “I can’t thrive with you, if your growth is stunted, and we can’t win together, if we are mentally asunder.” “I’m reinforced for a Sole Journey to Soul Freedom ~When 2 becomes 1…….. -Urth Eagle Tisha © 2/29/2012 © copyright 2012-03-08 20:31:36 UTC - All Rights Reserved

Love Games

  Love Games

You said, “Wait and see what happens”

I’ve been here heart completely- from the 1^st Chapter

Through your games

Through your changes

I stood

Loved Me like the Queen I am….you “did”

Gentle touches,

Butterfly kisses, and

Firefly glowing eyes;

My helium heart did float- in the 1^st Chapter

….as the pages begin to turn,

so did your games

What I thought was true love,

I, now, know was just the 1^st inning, for you….

What you didn’t know was…..

“With My heart, you get no strikes”

You surely did hit a homerun, though, hunny….

when you struck Me with that fake bunt,

……Just to reel Me in

Your fish I “was”, but, I didn’t bite your hook for long.

I realized, quickly, that I was dealing with artificial artifacts.

….and I spew you out like a pregnant Mama in Her 1^st trimester,

as you had begun to sicken My soul….My being…

before we even began Chapter 2, I slammed that book shut!

Discarded it!

I was beginning to breathe easily,

when you tried again,

tried to use your old key;

the one I knew, no longer fit into my life,

thinking that the locks remained unchanged

a foul, bitter taste of bile came northward my throat…

touching my taste buds, ever so slightly.

just the thought that you would approach me once more with your game,

only this time My heart is harder…stronger…

I am wiser.

even now, you come half-steppin’ with your broken bat,

and same ol’ plays.

I swallow My spittle and smile….

Knowing that I’m not playing or buying your tickets this time ‘round.

I refuse to allow you to play My heart like a softball…

Play with My life….My children.

I’ve grown….your actions show that you still haven’t.

I “see” that you’re still blinded,

holdin’ on continuously to your “friends” and youth vs teaching them.

The refusal to gain wisdom…to increase internally in life…

Saddened by you….I can still smile,

thinking….

thinkin' of what My heart would have given,

what My soul would have shared and wrapped into you….into us

Yeah….saddened, but Free

Free….I am to know that we deserve more

Exhilarated, because of the lessons I have learned…

The strength I have gained, giving me to power to say,

Hell No.

The End.

© ~Urth Eagle Tisha 1/10/12

No Perfect Love

No Perfect Love by Urth Eagle

“LoveTransformstipulations”

bald.

nappy.

bushy.

curls-tight.

It is who I am. It is my birthright!

head,

thighs,

arms,

butt’s all getting’ bigger;

Ignored the lives carried, throughout My life;

Body transformations you see?

Yes.  The obvious, it is that you observe.

Absorb.

My Soul's Love’s reflections, you’ve neglected;

-I’m determined to focus on elevating My Mind’s Intellect.

Education.

Spiritual levitation.

Penetrating the always transforming, exterior visuals you depreciate;

pushing….advancing…enduring in life……I stand. 

spine of alloy……I stand.

consistent with My conviction to learn more of Me! I stand!

eliminating callowness that surrounds me;

trimming physical and mental weight simultaneously,

Knowing your thoughts are simple,

Yet if allowed, your words severe……

Thing Is~

As you’re viewing my exterior transformations, intellectually at halt

My mental revelations ….my emergence will have surpassed you

 All along, as Life sets Her Mastery Scene

My soul….My heart…. It had incessantly remained

Ever-growing, but always reserving Her same love;

With all you perceived with your eyes,

Deep within My Heart’s Soul, my loe, still rested

Eye Content as Am….happily black, bushy, & thick;

I am, as well, renewed and lighter in all ways

How?

How? Now, do you ask me to accept your stipulated love?

There are no stipulations in love

Love gives, unconditionally

Love pours, like an overflowing tub of warm peppermint bath

Love feels, like warm coconut milk overflowing beautiful, brown smoothness

Love’s touch is your flesh….my flesh…..which, is no longer he and she, but we

Love is not 2 but, the connection of Souls, who have become “One”

Love is the part of Souls that is The Over-comer of the hell that life presents,

Giving Lovers the strength to carry on….!!

Love Just Is!!

True love “cannot” transform to stipulations.

True Love can not only transform stipulations,

She makes them non-existent.

© LeTisha.Bowie “Urth Eagle” 12/2011

Let Me Be

Let Me Be by Urth Eagle Let Me Be How can I trust you? You’ve been so untrue I gave you my all…..my all I gave you I was faithful & sincere I thought you would be here-……Always….All days You proved me wrong, when you left me ….in all ways Alone in our home…. Alone in my heart…. My soul longed for your love I prayed often to God above “When will this marriage get it right?” So how can you expect that I trust you? Tremendous anguish I endured, I thought our vows were mutually pure I gave up my love….gave relentlessly You lied and you lied; I tried and I tried Yet, you left me alone, to cry while you were gone You should have been home then, Sharing the joy I tried to give But you craved that cheatin’ life ….that street life That’s how you wanted to live Daylight family man Evening & Midnight for lady’s man Now, life ain’t so grand? I’m tired, I’m through, Done! Time that I’m #1 For me! I have nothing left to offer you, But a chance to get it right the next time…. It just won’t be at my cost …..? I’m supposed to believe you’re ready to be true? I was so blue, Giving my everything, while you were out with your crew I can’t trust you! It’s gone! I will no longer live this lie God knows that I’ve tried, ……..and I still have the audacity to hurt for your pain When I know my heart sits in my chest, like shredded paper, Because my own remains Let me go! You left me freely & uncaring, Like Fall’s beautiful leaves, blowing in the wind I see your pain, but mine overwhelms it, Because, the love I gave was isolated for too many years My heart knows, that now is the time….. To leave this season in life behind I’m drained….no more pain from the same ol’ same “Now you say” you want your home It never left….you did How can you expect me to trust you? You’ve lied for so long Just give me my peace….let me be I no longer trust you My soul wants to be free Free of unnecessary worry….unnecessary hurt I no longer need you….I know my life’s worth You’ve abolished the trust here I have no more tears Just let me be….. My soul speaks now, “It’s time to be free.” © LeTisha.T.Bowie

My Soul has Wings

My Soul Has Wings by Urth Eagle ~Urth Eagle Tisha 11/11/11

Absolute Love

Absolute LOVE by Urth Eagle

"Feel Me"

"Bound"